Well it hit me this week that I am getting soooo close to becoming a Mommy! It was early in the morning, I had gotten up to use the restroom...AGAIN, and I saw the bassinet sitting by our bed, empty, but waiting. And I know I've thought about it out of excitement, but at that time, the reality of becoming someone's mom hit me in a whole new way.
I always make jokes to my husband about how we will be bringing another human home with us soon. I talk about the reality of the fact that we are becoming 3 instead of 2, and that there will soon be someone that relies on us for EVERYTHING! It's a pretty big responsibility!
Altogether though, I have really enjoyed being pregnant. I have felt mostly well, and other than the first trimester been pretty energized, (although my husband might not agree). When people ask if I'm ready to have the baby, my reply is of course yes. Really though, it's not that I'm tired of being pregnant, it's that I cannot wait to hold my sweet baby boy! I can't wait to see every detail of him, and notice the little places where he looks like me or looks like his daddy. I can't wait for my husband to be a daddy, and to see him interact with his son. Just the sound of that is incredible and unbelievable to me, all at the same time.
It is funny all the emotions and thoughts that you go through when you are pregnant. The feelings of pure and unbearable excitement that come when you think about your sweet baby and becoming a family of three. Then there's the utter disbelief, and healthy fear of I can't believe my life is going to change this much! And O-M-G will I be able to do this!??
I think the craziest thing to me is that for so long I have been the Aunt.....Aunt Britt-Britt. In 8th grade my brother had his first child, making my sister and I aunts for the first time. I fell in love with that baby girl, and every other baby since then! I have adored my nieces and nephews and loved being an aunt to them. And now, it is crazy to think that I, the baby in the family will have my own, I will now be going from Aunt to Mommy! I can't wait to be the one that my baby cries for and always wants. I can't wait to never have to say goodbye to my baby. I can't for when family is in, and then everyone goes back home for my baby to stay with me, and for me to get to rock him to sleep every night! I can't wait to be Mommy to my sweet boy!